Brett H Perkins - Murfreesboro, Tennessee » Poetry/Lyrics

Unsettled.

bretthperkins — Sun, 29 May 2011 02:37:51 +0000

Unsettled.
As my ground is shifting… shaking.
Unsettled.
With the plans I have been making…
It’s foolish and naïve to think that living would be easy.
Each day I’m up my worlds change… Can’t help this feeling… queasy.

Unsettled.
With irony I find…
I’m unsettled.
As these thoughts race through my mind.
With each new day I see my life continue rushing by…
So fast that I don’t have the time to say “Hello, Goodbye?!”

Unsettled.
In all that I’ve become.
Unsettled.
As it seems the time has come.
To acknowledge that I’m holding on to life’s realities
Instead of leading with my heart into love and fantasies.

Unsettled.
In seeking out the truth.
Unsettled.
I’m trapped in thoughts of youth.
Those days have come, and more still will… after all I’m not dead yet.
But I’m living life in yesterday and my focus is regret.

Unsettled.
With each new breath… new blink
Unsettled.
Exhausted now I think…
About the days that lay ahead… The journeys yet to be.
That require me to let all go… my friends… my family

I settled…
Perhaps that’s what I did?
Just settled…
Had no courage left to bid.
‘Cause what I thought was tongue in cheek was really there for me.
How could I miss the life-love of possibility?

Unsettled.
But now I have my time.
Unsettled.
Is an awesome frame of mind!
To motivate and put in motion awesome things in me.
To get me to a place my heart has always longed to be.
Unsettled.

Metaphors Galore

bretthperkins — Tue, 26 Oct 2010 02:41:35 +0000

The door now closed, forever will be

Turn around to see what there is too see

Dwell not within the path that’s end

Has come and left you here

About your face! Go t’ward the place

That’s waiting for your entrance

For locked you’ll find the world behind

The path you’ve long since taken

If on the trail you catch your tail

Then all your goals have missed

For in the end, your life, my friend

Should always keep it hidden

Find Your Peace

bretthperkins — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 15:47:54 +0000

Beware this friend… for he is not!
Escape his sight. Untie the knot.
Take back control and let him go.
Reclaim your heart from the frozen snow.
As darkness falls focus on the light.
Yes, it may seem to be lost in flight.
Enjoy searching and never cease in…
Dark betrayals… find your peace.

Drowning in Daylight

bretthperkins — Tue, 11 May 2010 20:27:43 +0000

The demons in my past

Come at me every night

With every dream I see them

Then waken wet with fright

I gather my composure

I make it through the day

Until again I’m haunted

More nightmares come my way

This used to only happen

When I was feeling down

But now it’s never-ending

In daylight I now drown

When once I could escape

At work or with my friends

It now seems I’m consumed

This nighttime knows no end

And to compound more the visions

Of tragedies long passed

The darkness is persisting

And the good things… never last.

-brett-

Man In The Mirror (re-post)

bretthperkins — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 21:49:12 +0000

He’s there. Looking at me. His eyes say so much more than words could ever express. The sadness, the despair, yet somehow, behind the fog there is such happiness and light. I can’t figure him out. How can he look at me with such guilt and at the same time, with such blame. He’s angry. Furious. But why? He knows what I go through. He’s been there the whole time. He should understand. He doesn’t. Yet at the same time, how is it possible for him not to? I want so much to talk to him. To ask him how he feels, and how he would do things different, but that’s insane. I can’t speak to him any more than I can speak to an idea or a dream. The impulse to speak overpowers me, and I begin. I yell. I ask why? I want an explanation, but he can’t offer one. How is it that he can’t? If anyone knows how I feel, HE should. I continue to yell, to scream, but he just stands there, mocking me. In frustration, I punch him. That. . . was a mistake. I watched as the shattered pieces of the mirror fell to the ground, and wept as I cradled my broken hand.

Posted on my Myspace blog on May 31, 2007.

-=brett=-

Found

bretthperkins — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 17:27:25 +0000

Lost in the moment as I looked around
At what I’ve been missing, and what I have found
The memories flood from a place I once knew
This forgotten friend never stopped being true

With arms opened wide, I felt an embrace
As all of my tears were wiped from my face
The harshness and cold that made up my soul
Replaced with fulfillment, at last I was full

For the first time in years, I really felt good
With beautiful sound around where I stood
I was lost in the moment as I looked around
I am no longer missing. For here I am found

Life Is So Much More than Saturday Night

bretthperkins — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 18:43:17 +0000

What happened to your focus, your drive, and your ambition?

You have your sexy car, but babe, it’s missing its transmission.

How do you think you’re gonna get from where you are to there?

With something that lacks meaning: two lungs that can’t breathe air.

It makes no sense, you’re so damn dense. You fail to comprehend!

That all this shiny extra stuff is really just pretend.

And when you leave and see this world for what is really there,

I hope that you will have the strength to glance beyond the stare.

Coming back at you from the mirror as you look toward the wall

And smile at the shirt you bought, before you knew that all

Is nothing more than the shirts you buy, or dancing with that guy

Before you know it, time is gone, and you’ll have to say good bye,

And walk into your home, alone, and cry yourself to sleep.

Because you know that your whole life all you have been is cheap.

How do you think you’re gonna get from where you are to there?

Your life, your goals, they’re all gone now. I know. It isn’t fair.

Valentine

bretthperkins — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 15:08:28 +0000

Valentine

I can be your Valentine. You’ll never be alone.
I can promise all my time. You’ll always have a home,
And I’ll be there to hold you and make you feel all right.
Although, sometimes, your life may seem as though there is no light.

I can be your Valentine. This love will never die.
I may not always make you smile, but I will always try,
And I will never leave you, or move you down the list.
Although, sometimes, it feels like void your life is with no bliss.

I can be your Valentine. You’re world is all right here.
I will be there by your side. There’s nothing you should fear.
And I will find a way, no matter how hard it may seem.
Although the drive to happiness may only land a dream.

I can be your Valentine. Awaken in my arms.
I can show you life is grand. I’ll be your lucky charm.
And I will journey with you, through all that life will bring.
Although the quest will build us up, it will be challenging.

I can be your Valentine. Alas this is my call.
I am here. I’m with you. To catch you as you fall.

-=brett=-

Double Standard

bretthperkins — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 04:05:29 +0000

Doing things you say you don’t

Only to betray

Until you look upon yourself

Before that fateful day

Lest all you know and all you hear

Expect to walk away

Some tell you that it’s all okay

That you can act this way

Alas I pity what you are

No need for me to say

Don’t look at me in disbelief

At times when you feel gray

Remember always what you did

Don’t expect this save today

-=brett=-

Introspection

bretthperkins — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:24:31 +0000

I take off the blinders as I look inside

No longer afraid. I choose not to hide.

There’s too much to lose, too much to gain

Relaxed in acceptance of this lifetime of pain.

Of choices I’ve made, and ones I will make;

Searching for meaning on a quest I must take.

Perhaps on my way, I’ll get to the day

Every person desires in their special way.

Craving not just attention, but a lifetime or meaning.

Turning sharp from my past, from the hurt I was clinging.

Internally focused externally bound;

Only one thing in life have I truly found:

Nothing yet in my life has been more profound.