I will blog.

So, yesterday, in boredom, I decided to peruse my old blog on Myspace…  this is where I wrote everything before I made bretthperkins.com.   Well…  I learned a lot about me.  I learned that I have changed, but I have stayed the same.  Lol.  Ok, that makes no sense, you say…  and I would agree.  But I have to say that the parts of me that have changed needed change, and the parts of me that stayed the same are things that I don’t think need change.

My blogs on MySpace span a time from Winter 2005 to Fall 2008.  It was a good time in my life, but you would not know it to read all of the sad, emotional and angry postings!  It was a time when I was finishing school and meeting great people.  It was a time where Wal-Mart sent me to Kimball, and I began work at Deloitte.  In reading what I chose to write, I realized that this is where I have progressed the most.  I find that I do not dwell on things like I once did.  Yeah, things bother me still… I am alive!  But they are not as debilitating as they once were.  I also now pay attention to much more of the positive in life now than I did then.  Anywho…  I can go on forever, so I will just stop there and say that it is interesting none-the-less, and I am happy with my progress.

I decided that I only wanted to keep a few things from that blog.  A lot of that blog was meaningless rants anyway, so I grabbed up a few blogs about some great events (Cedar Point and some Birthdays) as well as all of my poetry, and ported them into this site.  I am likely going to cancel my mySpace account…  I never use it, and I am on a quest to simplify my life.   We’ll see.

In a show of support and solidarity to Eric, I dusted off my glasses.  He has to wear glasses for a week or two while his eyes heal from a complication from wearing contacts too long.  Because of the glasses, he was self-coconscious.  I have not worn my glasses for longer than an hour or two in several years, so this is interesting for me.  Everything looks smaller in my glasses. (Which is a great thing when I look in the mirror! Lol) Anywho, I also miss my peripheral vision.  With glasses, only the 80% of the world directly in front of your eyes gets focused.  The 20% around the rim is still a hot mess!  It is all good, though.  I kinda miss myself in glasses.  I wear them well.  Maybe I will start wearing them more often.  *shrugs* I dunno.

I was beginning to feel really guilty at work.  I literally do nothing… and I don’t like it.  I ask for things to do, and there is nothing, when I am tasked, I do the work well and quick…  then I am back to nothing.  However, I have settled on the fact that as long as I ask and as long as I perform when I am tasked, I am doing just what they want me to be doing.  On a weekly basis, I ask my manager if I am doing what I should be doing and she confirms that I am… so I should be fine.  It is a great lesson in learning how to live life and not plan or stress.  I am just going to keep doing what I do.  When they need me, they will tell me.

-=brett=-