Because I fucking know what I am doing!!    I have come to the stark realization that I am NO carpenter.  I am not even trying to do difficult things, but when it comes to wood working, I am all thumbs.  Its funny how you can have a very simple idea, or see a piece of work as inspiration that SEEMS simple only to have EVERYTHING in the world go wrong.  It was very simple really, just attach a raised plank of wood to a flat surface and put a light behind it.  Simple, yes?  FUCK NO!!!  lol  Before we began, we primed and painted the wood, that was pretty easy, just frustrating because we didn’t really have the right tools for it, but we got through it.  Anywho…  I begin the process of putting on the front pieces of the bar to the already completed parts of the bar, and in my mind, this seems very straight-forward, but it all goes to hell!!!  The screw we got aren’t the right kind.  They just go RIGHT THROGH the wood!!!  So we get new screws, but THOSE are a pain, too!!!  The top of them, you know, where the screw attaches to the screw driver, just keeps stripping.  I can’t get ANYTHING on the bar.  To top that off, I broke the part that I need to drill the holes for this part.  Anywho, I will get this done and it will be great, I just wish it hadn’t been such a nightmare.  And to top that all off, its not like I handle these little issues gracefully…  NO!!!  For some reason, which remains a mystery, I lose my cool at the drop of a nail.  Literally.  I have NO clue what my deal is.  I have been a complete ass.  I mean, it has nothing to do with anyone, and I am not mad at anyone, except perhaps myself.  I get accustomed to doing things well, and I don’t like it when I make mistakes…  and I really, REALLY don’t like it when things do not go as I planned or as I imagined they would go.  (It’s the control-freak in me, I guess).  At any rate, I need to really work on my temper.  I got in under control when it comes to my roommates, but this is just ridiculous.  There is no reason for me to get all huffy puffy about some screws and wood – no reason at all!  Gosh, Brett… just get a grip!

On another note, I got my track lights installed, but I am not 100% happy about them yet.  I may take a few days next week to tweak them…  IDK, maybe I will grow to like them.  They are pretty.  I just wish the geniuses that designed my townhouse had just put lights above the bar…  I mean, really…  who does that?

And my tummy says feed me!!!  I’m off to the Daily Buffet – mmm good!

-=brett=-